Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 8 | Location 37-38 | Added on Monday, June 10, 2024 6:07:51 PM
I feel like a defective model, like I came off the assembly line flat-out fucked and my parents should have taken me back for repairs before the warranty ran out.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 9 | Location 57-58 | Added on Monday, June 10, 2024 6:11:33 PM
I need the thing that happens when your brain shuts off and your heart turns on.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 14 | Location 119-120 | Added on Monday, June 10, 2024 6:18:31 PM
And the thing that’s really bugging me, as I lie curled up, is that the scene I’m enacting reminds me of something: It reminds me of my whole life.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 15 | Location 135-138 | Added on Monday, June 10, 2024 6:22:04 PM
I’m starting to wonder if I might not be one of those people like Anne Sexton or Sylvia Plath who are just better off dead, who may live in that bare, minimal sort of way for a certain number of years, may even marry, have kids, create an artistic legacy of sorts, may even be beautiful and enchanting at moments, as both of them supposedly were. But in the end, none of the good was any match for the aching, enduring, suicidal pain.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 18 | Location 175-176 | Added on Monday, June 10, 2024 6:26:08 PM
No matter how many chemicals I have ever used to bleach or sandblast my brain, I know by now, only too well, that you can never get away from yourself because you never go away.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 26 | Location 289-291 | Added on Monday, June 10, 2024 6:38:21 PM
Depression is a lot like that: Slowly, over the years, the data will accumulate in your heart and mind, a computer program for total negativity will build into your system, making life feel more and more unbearable
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 30 | Location 337-338 | Added on Tuesday, June 11, 2024 7:01:44 AM
Sharing kids with a person you have come to despise must be a bit like getting caught in a messy car wreck and then being forced to spend the rest of your life paying visits to the paraplegic in the other vehicle: You are never allowed to forget your mistake.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 52 | Location 641-642 | Added on Wednesday, June 12, 2024 7:19:29 AM
but maybe I do feel sorry for all the nice people whose efforts are wasted on a waste case like me. All this just amounts to more grist for the mill of the ill: On top of feeling sad I also feel guilty.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 53 | Location 648-649 | Added on Wednesday, June 12, 2024 7:20:25 AM
It’s not that I’m fixing to die any time soon, but my spirit seems to have already retreated to the netherworld, and I figure, Hey, how much longer does my body have?
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 53 | Location 649-651 | Added on Wednesday, June 12, 2024 7:20:42 AM
People talk about the way disembodied spirits roam the world with no place to park themselves, but all I can think is that I am a dispirited body, and I’m sure there are plenty of other human mollusk shells roaming around, waiting for some soul to fill them up.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 58 | Location 718-719 | Added on Wednesday, June 12, 2024 7:29:24 AM
she actually would try to talk to me about why I was like I was—but she just couldn’t stand it when I’d explain that nothing at all was wrong, that it was just a matter of everything.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 58 | Location 726-727 | Added on Wednesday, June 12, 2024 7:30:52 AM
Oh, Ma, you’re looking at all the trees, and I’m not even in the forest.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 59 | Location 739-740 | Added on Wednesday, June 12, 2024 7:32:02 AM
an understanding of my mother’s precarious, delicate nature—which placed definite limits on how much rope I had to hang myself.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 60 | Location 749-750 | Added on Wednesday, June 12, 2024 7:33:09 AM
Jessica Lange at the beginning of the movie Frances,
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 62 | Location 774-775 | Added on Wednesday, June 12, 2024 7:36:22 AM
It’s not that I’m unattractive—I think that maybe I’m even pretty, but my look appeals to an entirely different demographic group.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 63 | Location 793-794 | Added on Wednesday, June 12, 2024 7:38:19 AM
I am surprised to discover that I have the facility, in all my sadness, not only to receive but to give a bit of this life force.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 120 | Location 1568-1568 | Added on Saturday, June 15, 2024 3:31:57 PM
looking at me like I’m a tornado or
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 120 | Location 1568-1568 | Added on Saturday, June 15, 2024 3:37:10 PM
looking at me like I’m a tornado or
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 144 | Location 1889-1890 | Added on Saturday, June 15, 2024 5:24:08 PM
though I am told that if you resist the natural urge to come to the surface for air, drowning is the least painful method of death that there is.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 154 | Location 2030-2031 | Added on Sunday, June 16, 2024 9:42:30 AM
Even the brief, two-day gap in activity was enough time for that old ugly feeling, that familiar black wave, to start creeping up on me, threatening to drag me away.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 231 | Location 3067-3067 | Added on Tuesday, June 18, 2024 9:55:36 PM
now that he was insisting that he wanted to be my boyfriend and not my panacea, he was no longer part of the solution.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 289 | Location 3851-3852 | Added on Friday, June 21, 2024 2:37:24 PM
Depression is such an uncharismatic disease, so much the opposite of the lively vibrance that one associates with madness.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 292 | Location 3889-3895 | Added on Friday, June 21, 2024 2:40:55 PM
The McLean people recommend fluoxetine because they have diagnosed me with atypical depression. This diagnosis was not easy for them, or for Dr. Sterling, to come by, as the occasional appearance of manic-like episodes (for instance, during my energetic first month in Dallas) might indicate that I suffer from either manic-depressive illness or cyclothymia, a milder type of mood-swing disease. But in the end, the diagnosticians conclude that I’ve been too persistently down and not florid enough in my manic periods to be bipolar. Atypical depression is long-term and chronic, but the sufferer’s mood can occasionally be elevated in response to outside stimulus. This diagnosis seems a better way to explain the periodic occasions when I seemed happy or productive, but would always return to my normally depressed state in perfect boomerang fashion.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 292 | Location 3899-3904 | Added on Friday, June 21, 2024 2:41:27 PM
The atypically depressed are more likely to be the walking wounded, people like me who are quite functional, whose lives proceed almost as usual, except that they’re depressed all the time, almost constantly embroiled in thoughts of suicide even as they go through their paces. Atypical depression is not just a mild malaise—which is known diagnostically as dysthymia—but one that is quite severe and yet still somehow allows an appearance of normalcy because it becomes, over time, a part of life. The trouble is that as the years pass, if untreated, atypical depression gets worse and worse, and its sufferers are likely to commit suicide out of sheer frustration with living a life that is simultaneously productive and clouded by constant despair.
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Prozac Nation Young and Depressed (El... (Z-Library) (Elizabeth Wurtzel)
- Your Highlight on page 313 | Location 4171-4173 | Added on Friday, June 21, 2024 4:09:00 PM
Anne Sexton poem “Wanting to Die,” in which she says that the urge to kill herself is with her always, even when she has nothing against life, because after a certain point, it’s not about having a reason: “Suicides have a special language,” she writes. “Like carpenters they want to know which tools. They never ask why build.” So what tools do I have at my disposal?
